by Haiden Van Amburg
I don't know if everyone has done this or if it was just me, but I was told by my parents the whole time I was growing up that I needed to wait till after high school to have a boyfriend, so I did, but in waiting 18 years of life and watching movies and seeing all my friends have their first kiss I had a lot of time to romanticize my first kiss. I did just that not just my first kiss but for all my firsts so we are talking just about my first kiss today and my first kiss in my head was this great milestone and I had a lot of thoughts about it so, it was supposed to be in the rain and me and the guy were just supposed to look deeply into each others eyes and “fall into” a kiss and it was supposed to be like time stops and I wouldn't feel anything but the kiss we were having in the moment.
Well, to break it as gently as I can my first kiss was nothing like that. It was in my dorm room on my creaky bed and the whole time the bed made noises and then to make it worse there was people out in the hall of my residence, and they were talking quite loudly so not the most romantic and instead of falling into a kiss I had to ask if we could kiss. I hated asking; it almost ruined the moment. After all of that had happened the kiss wasn't horrible - time did in fact feel as though it had stopped and like it was much longer then it actually was, but it was slimy. I am aware that yes, it is spit that you are sharing, well kissing, but I didn't think that it would feel like that and what on earth are you supposed to do with your hands while kissing? My hands were holding me up so I didn't fall on my face and his were on my sides, but it still felt like we should be doing it differently.
I get it kissing, and everything else, can be a very taboo topic but I think that it needs to be talked about more so that people don't think it's going to be this magical thing where fireworks go off out of nowhere as the two people kiss.
So, the moral of this piece is “don't romanticize your firsts because they will be nothing like what you plan out.” This is not to say that you shouldn't have a good time while having your first kiss but it is to say that it will likely be far from what it is in movies. If you go in thinking like that you are going to be very disappointed afterwords. All in all, I am glad I have had my first kiss and I'm kinda glad it was with the guy it was with.
Comments